Moving

I'm home again and I'll be moving to Puchong in a week time. I don't know about my feelings inside. I suddenly just don't feel anything. I hate moving here and there, to be honest. I've had the experience and it was tiring and exhausting plus complicated.

In 2000.
It was hard to mingle with the Penangites. The accent. The attitude. Everything. Back in KL before ( when it was 2000), I was never used to 'kau-aku' when I speak to others. People accepted me as the niece of The VP of Student's Affairs in school. And I had a few friends that I could rely on those days. But once I was in Penang, everything was like so hard. I only had a friend - Zati. And she's very nice. It's not that the community, it's me! I just don't feel welcomed. It was very complicated. However, thanks to everyone, I had my time. And it's a very good one. I don't usually smile when I get to think about it but it was beautiful.

I accept this whole ' moving thingy' as the phase of life. And right now, I'm back to my beloved place of birth. And I just need to accept it, and go on with it.

:) - Ruzaini, perhaps we can meet each other someday. You live in BK too, right?

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People.

I haven't express myself in this blog for quite a while huh? I do miss this, but however, doing this thing will bring the guilt in myself. With my finals around the corner, it's just too hard to bring myself in front the computer to do this. FYI, when I blog, I blog till I can't remember anything. So, I'm going to make this promise to myself and KEEP it! THIS is going to be just for A WHILE!

~ I did my lab report yesterday, but it was so hard till I gave up doing it. I did my lab report till I forgot my laundry that I had soaked earlier in the softener. When I woke up this morning, then only, I remembered about my laundry.

~ My experiment in making zinc chloride was a total disaster. We didn't get zinc chloride. We got nothing at all as the liquid was evaporated. It was very sad! I was the one who stirred the zinc chloride-to-be solution! *sighs*

~ We had a sudden Chemistry test last Wednesday. We only knew there'd be a test the night before! As a result of not having everything in my head, I woke up at 3 am to revise. Thanks to Seri, she motivated me. :)

~ Izwani was not in a good mood earlier this week. So, you guess!

~ We'll be having this ICE exhibition next week when our finals will be in 2 weeks time. We have to do this project to be exhibited during this ICE thingy. ( reminds me of MRSM Taiping)

But the one thing that made me exhilarated is :

WE'LL BE GOING TO USM THIS THURSDAY TO WATCH A SPANISH MOVIE! YEAY!

OMG! I love Spanish!

Garang?

Saya garang ke?

*ramai angguk*

Adoii.
Kasar.
Garang.
Gemuk.

Rasa macam Jan Di dengan Seo Hyun pula.

Perbandingan diri. Rendah diri. Tahap keyakinan rendah. Saya betul -betul teruk sekarang. *mengeluh*

Perlu ubah diri sendiri?

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What should I say? Things are getting out of my hands nowadays. And I'm feeling very sad. I have nothing to say as I have lots of things to express. The things that are not expressed from the first day. To be honest, I don't think I have been honest with myself, about how I feel, and how I think of myself. I think I'm having a problem.

I'm having a serious mental illness problem. I have such low self-esteem.


How am I going to help myself?

Okay, today is 12th. September. 2009.

Ifwat has gone by now. In the plane with his dad. And I'm very happy for him. :)

Hoping that you'll do your best in your A Level in UK. My prayers will always be with you.

Yo soy muy alegre para el, pero es muy triste para me. Lluvia en mi corazon.

Whatever it is, iAnimo!

P/S: Not really in the mood now.

Phy and C1

I have no intention to update anything, to be honest.

College's fine. Everything's great. Except for my Physics test.

It's not great but it's okay. Alhamdulillah, I scored 52/70. For beginners, it's a self-motivating marks. *when you're not thinking of Fiq's marks which is 64 and Hannah's marks which is 63, of course*

Well, guess what? I lost 11 marks because I was not putting the "unit of". Silly mistake, but everyone is doing the same mistake. :D

Okay, enough about the Physics' marks. Focus on Core Maths.

Well, we were entering a new topic - Number Sequences and Series last Thursday, and Madam Che Hayati gave us some questions to test our understanding. Then, we came across this one so-hard-to-do ques.

Even Madam Che Hayati can't seem to find the way to answer it.

And suddenly, Fendi put up his hand and told Madam Che Hayati, he got it.

Okay. We, the girls were like amazed plus wondering, how on earth did he get that?

Later, we had a Physics' class.

Mr Liew asked us to do the tutorials. And much to our amazement, the guys already finished up all the questions.

When did they do that? ( when you came across a fact that we had a Pengajian Malaysia's quiz earlier on the same day)

Adoi. Stress aku.

Pak teh, they are really really brilliant. It's not that they pretend to be brilliant.
Datang kelas kakak, and have a learning session then, only you'll know.

P/S : Nak otak budak lelaki boleh tak?

Marriage

Everyone is getting married nowadays! And I hate the feeling that my time is somewhere around the corner. Tomorrow Kak Sarah will be engaged to a guy and she's only 20! They'll be married somewhere next year, and Abg Apit will be married to Kak Has this Oct. I just can't believe this. This is too fast!


And I blame Onn for that. ( He's Kak Sarah's fiancee-to-be) No hard feelings, bro, it's just that I'm feeling quite down lately, and poof! You came out of nowhere, telling us that you want to be married to Kak Sarah in a year-time when I'm really not prepared for the sudden occasion!

This is so hard for me.

p/s: Abg Fendi, jangan kahwin awal-awal sgt tau! Nanti akak takde teman nak main. Tinggal Amalina. Tak seronoklah main dengan Abg Khair. Dia serius sgt. Lagipun, seganlah dgn dia!